Tara Brach: The Path of Spiritual Surrender, Part 1

namaste and welcome so I start tonight with a very classic teaching story there's in this the way it begins as a man who's falls from a precipice and he finds himself perilously hanging from a limb and there's a tiger just kind of pacing above and jagged rocks below and he calls doubt frantically help is anybody there and he hears a resounding yes and he goes god yes booming God can you help me yes you need to do only one thing anything let go and says he's anybody else there and so so I've been sharing this particular teaching story for as long as I can remember because it's the very last thing we want to do when we're feeling threatened is to you know we're caught up and protecting and grasping and the last thing we want to do is let go of control to let go ajahn Chah was a great time edit ation teacher one of one of the stories used known for us he'd walk around the monastery when different monks were meditating and when he sees somebody who was struggling who was you know seem to be really suffering he would say to them oh must be very attached you know knowing and this is what we're going to look into that when we're suffering we're holding on really tight at that time to the sense something's wrong something's wrong with me or defenses or our judgments or in control mode in a deep way and so the teaching this is an integral part of any spiritual path is that the freedom comes when we learn to loosen the grip when we learn to let go some and from audience ah these are his words if you let go a little you'll find a little peace if you let go a lot you'll find a lot of peace if you let go absolutely you'll find absolute peace and tranquility so this talk and our next one this will be a two-part series will be on surrender on the letting go or surrendering that frees us and I want to acknowledge this is not a good word if you're running for political office or you're managing a corporate board meeting or if you're in the thick of battle you know it's it can be a dicey word but the inner art of surrender this inner capacity to release the grip to let go of the resistance to open to what's here is intrinsic to waking up so that's what we're going to explore its intrinsic to being a a wise leader its intrinsic to being a good parent its intrinsic to being a friend and an awake human so we'll start by saying well what does it really mean to surrender and I'll even start before that saying here's what it doesn't mean surrender does not mean that we're resigning that we're submitting our self to some illegitimate Authority doesn't mean we're giving up or that there's passivity in the face of injustice or violation because each of these are actually forms of denying what's going on or avoiding or detached dissociating letting go and surrender doesn't mean we say oh I'm angry I'm just going to surrender my anger or let go of my anger or my jealousy or it's not a cutting off or a dropping of the emotions that were feeling a lust a story of a couple that's been married for 60 years and throughout those 60 years the wife kept a shoe box in the closet and she the only real demand she had of her husband was never open that shoebox and so he actually didn't think about it for the 60 years but then she became gravely ill and he knew that she wasn't going to make it so he was sorting out their affairs and sitting by her bedside she agreed it was time for him to see what was inside the box so his eyes widened when he saw that inside the box there was ninety five thousand dollars in two hand crocheted dolls she said when we first got married my grandmother told me the secret of a happy marriage was to never argue she said when I got angry with you I should just keep quiet and crochet a doll so he's deeply touched and you know the two dolls meant that she was angry with him you know twice in sixty years that's pretty good you know and he's overcome with emotion he's saying honey you know that explains that the whole but what about all the money where did the money come from and she said oh that that's the money I made from selling all the dolls so and that's by way of saying the most open and true and deep in intimate relationships with ourselves and others don't come because we cut off drop surrender the lived feelings inside us and I wanted to take another moment with that because in spiritual circles there's what's come to be known as premature transcendence where whether it's forgiveness or surrender rather than actually going through the process which is hard of being with what's there and getting to a legitimate real with integrity kind of forgiveness or surrender there can be a sense of well I'm a spiritual person I'm just going to surrender my ego I'm going to to render the impurities and that actually bypasses because it takes a dedicated and courageous presence with what's actually here to arrive at surrender you can't bypass so what is surrender and I'm kind of pointing towards it because surrender is the natural release of grasping or resistance that arises when we have a full tender embodied presence it's like this willingness to be with and say yes to what's here actually releases the controller it's it's that process of letting go of the controller and I do think of it in a way that where we surrender any moment that we begin to say yes to what's right here and sometimes it's a tentative yes like I don't really want to be with this maybe if I'm with it'll go away that kind of yes but there's still a kind of leaning in we're kind of saying alright I'm gonna you know kind of gentle in towards it to the profound yes that just allows life to unfold itself there are two gifts the more we cultivate this capacity of letting go and letting be and one of the gifts is if you think of it in the reverse when we're controlling we solidify a sense of a separate controlling self we solidify the inner sense of something's wrong I got to protect against things I'm bad you're bad when we begin this surrendering this loosening this opening we actually wake up past that separate self and discover a larger belonging we surrender to a larger truth of who we are we're going to explore that more this is sounding abstract but that surrender lets us open to a sense of the sacred the oneness that's true the second gift is it actually allows us to live from our higher self or a more expanded sense of being and a favorite surrender store I have that I'm going to be telling a few different versions or versions but approaches to surrender and we'll explore what makes it relevant to you in your life where in your life is there a stuckness a repeating pattern something that's really asking for that kind of presence and letting go that's going to be the kind of inquiry but this first story so this is about Lester Levinson who some of you might know of as the founder of the Sedona Method so Lester when he hit his forties became super sick he had heart failure he had colon cancer in fact at one point his doctor sent him home and said when you just don't move around much but there's no real way to to heal I mean it was kind of there's just palliative it was a death sentence so Lester started reflecting now he was a super educated guy he knew about all the world philosophies etc but he realized that all is education and all his accomplishments he was a successful entrepreneur nothing was in any way helping where did it get him you know so he began this this inquiry and he basically became very present with his body in his heart and he he directed a question to his colon he said what are you believing and what he got was that there was a demand that the world be different that he was moving through life and there was an undercurrent of this demand that the world changed and be different I'm not willing to be with life as it is it's not okay and he started seeing the suffering of his ways of controlling things trying to control things and make them the way he wanted them and when he saw that suffering was president with that suffering dad's would allow him to release that demand that the world be different now for him it was such a profound awakening this kind of surrendering of this demand that the world accommodate him it was so profound that he created a whole method of inquiry and presence and opening based on it but the core which is something as we'll see we find in pretty much every healing a meditative tradition is that when we're suffering we're like tight and resisting wanting things to be different and you might even take your hand right now and just experiment just make a fist and clench them and just on purpose clenched it's like I want things a certain way I don't want things a certain way and just since this this is the controlling self clenching one teacher said we're a bunch of tight muscles tensing against our existence now what is letting go letting go is actually just discontinue that clenching feel the pain of it and just discontinue their kind of surrendering the clench and notice the feelings that come up in your hand surrender dissolves the know the clench and it makes room for the flow of life letting go is not like we're dropping something letting go is a discontinuing or a stopping of the clinic okay we do it we clench in our body as we go through the day tight we clench in our mind with our worried thoughts or obsessing we clenched emotionally when we tighten and numb and armor our hearts we clench behaviorally when we defender or grass so it's a letting go of that a seizing and assisting you know fun one of the ways that I think about it is from long time ago a dialogue where one yogi was asking his master I think was Swami such an Ananda do I have to be a Hindu to do this yoga and saw me such an honest response was I'm not a Hindu I'm an undo isn't that good though really we don't have to subscribe to a religion as much as to learn this inner art of presence that lets us release these habits or patterns of of tensing against our life so you might just take a moment to sense for yourself because what we'll do is you know invite you to pick a place where you feel stuck where do you sense that the wisdom of letting go could be freeing for you and you might check your body and just notice what happens if you soften the muscles in your shoulder and you might not have noticed already that the shoulders were not at some you start noticing in your body where the habitual tightening is or maybe you scanned today and you notice that your mind was had a lot of judging going on the clench of judgment that was kind of pushing other people away with your judgments or maybe you notice that today there was kind of obsessive worry or planning kind of fear thoughts so that's a place where we get a lot of freedom and space if we let go a song or maybe you've been noticing that you've resisted really honestly opening to your your loneliness or your grief you can kind of sense that that's there and and you can sense the wisdom of letting go of that resistance and opening maybe you've been hell-bent on trying to change somebody and that's a place of letting go or maybe of having the second or third drink at a social event our extra desserts sometimes in the evening maybe you notice the belief deep down that you're failing or you're not lovable like Lester that things need to be different for you to be okay that you need to be different is there a belief like that in the deep way for all of us what we're learning to surrender is the story and identity with a separate fearful deficient self we're learning to surrender that and if you think of your whole evolution and the evolution of our species it's really this awakening consciousness that's surrendering those stories of being a small separate self and opening to a larger domain of being and love and connectedness so keep in mind for yourself we're in some way letting go could be freeing and part of what reveals it is we start noticing where the suffering is we start noticing where we were just where it's hard to let go the anger it's hard to to open to and see what's going on the fears I often refer back to the the work of a palliative care giver who described that the greatest regret of the dying that she sat with thousands of people and the report that came most regularly was the regret that I didn't live true to myself I lived according to other people's expectations or according to my own judgments but I didn't live true to myself and I have come to sense that this is really how most of us are feeling a lot of the time that we're not living really true to who we know could be you know the heart that we know really could be more loving they could love without holding back or we're not living true to our potential in some way and the shift that lets us live more true has to do with in some way cultivating a surrendering presence so let's look more closely at how we do that and then I'm going to will close with a with a meditation and the first is how do you relate to things when you find you're stuck if you know you're caught in judgment and defensiveness in feeling hurt and angry if you know you're caught in depression or shame how do you then relate to that and for most of us when we're stuck we immediately add on to it this is bad this is wrong I'm bad for being stuck you know there was there's an evaluation so the first step of surrendering is to let go of making our stuckness bad and let's say a little more about 30 years ago when I was training in neural linguistic programming which has got a lot in common with a lot of other therapeutic and other processes one of the mantras was whatever comes up is feedback not failure and I thought that was a really good phrase it's feedback not failure it's like whenever we're stuck there's some message from inside us that hey there's there's some freedom that's needed we need to we need to be more freed up pay attention it's feedback not failure and the understanding on the spiritual path that it's not a bad thing when we encounter the fear the depression the jealousy the hatred the anger it's actually a natural part of the human realm and that our spiritual awakening comes when we actually bring a full presence to those experiences not because they're not there it's the going through which requires acceptance and letting be and a surrendering presence let me give you an example from Rachel remin who's one of my favorite teachers and authors he wrote kitchen table wisdom that's just one of the good ones and my grandfather's blessings is another good book and she tells us she's a doctor and wise woman and she tells the story of a young man named Jeff who she said was the angriest patient she had ever treated and he was diagnosed with sarcoma osteogenic sarcoma and to save his life doctors had to remove his one of his legs and he woke up from surgery an angry man so his stuck place was that he's now a guy without a limb and he believed his life was over he believed that everything that was going on was wrong and bad and he fell into a depression began to use drugs drinking further deepening it so that's when he got referred to Rachel – Rachel lemon and so she asked him to draw a picture of his body and he drew a picture of a phase and it had a really large crack in it and you know it's like made the crack really jagged and and and horrible and he hands it to her and so she put it in her desk drawer and then soon he started asking about how other young people were living with amputations and and eventually he started volunteering at a hospital with other young amputees like himself so one day he meets a 21 year old woman and I'm gonna read she's recovering from double mastectomy horrible history of breast cancer 21 years old and the young woman to barely look up from her hospital bed so after several attempts Greg looked down at his leg he took off his prosthetic device dramatically dropped it he started hopping until finally he heard the woman start laughing and she looked up and said with a smile fella if you can dance maybe I can sing so he went from angry this is bad – okay this is what's going on how can I help other people to actually pulling her out of what she was into by the way they got married this is one of those stories I didn't write it it just would happen anyway so I want to tell you about his last meeting with Rachel remin I he walks into the room and she pulls out the drawing of the crack phase that he drew nearly two years earlier studying it Jeff took the drawing and said you know it's not really done and he took a yellow highlighter from her desk and drew vibrant yellow lines extending out from the crack in the vase and she gave him a puzzled look and he smiled and said this is where the light comes from this is where the light comes from the cracks the fissures the imperfections what we call the diseases the feelings of failure the feelings of how imperfect we are that's the place where the light can shine through you might know Ruby's very famous line he says keep your gaze on the wounded place keep your gaze on the wounded place that's where the light enters this is the first level of surrender when we get stuck can we surrender the idea that this is a bad thing when we're hurting can some place in us remember this is feedback to deepen our attention because if we deepen our attention that's where the light will come through okay so that's the that's the beginning of a path of surrender and I can say in my own life the there's a prayer that is used by the Bodhisattvas the Bodhisattvas a word for awakening beings which is may whatever arises may this serve the awakening of compassion and wisdom and I love that prayer because it's like saying okay no matter what happens to me like today I was really excited to be back and come in and be with you and I I love this theme we're talking about it's a very alive one for me and I woke up this morning and I had a really bad back spasm and I was so you know I'm just everything in me was going okay what am I going to do about it how am I going to fix it I've got to get in but maybe I can't John I think and he teach and I went into this whole spiral and I said wait a minute this is what I'm teaching you about tonight stop know what is surrender me now and the first step it was means that whatever this is about what matters is if I can bring presents like open to how it is then there'll be some light that shines through whether or not I get to come now as it is I'm in a pretty delicate state I may end up even standing up to do part of the talk I'll see how my back is but it's so amazing that if we can remember when stuff happens not to make it bad or wrong and the more difficult it is the more potential for light to come through I remember when my husband I got married we built it into our wedding whatever arises between us may this be a place that wakes up compassion and wisdom so you might reflect for a moment let your attention go inward and you might first ask yourself you know where you feel you've made there's really been true growth in your life like where you made it through a difficult situation maybe betrayal or a divorce maybe an early trauma doesn't mean you're on the other side of it but it's been like a source of transformation for you the loss of a dear one maybe the loss of your own hell how did it grow you how have you grown in relationship to that difficult situation can you sense maybe what beliefs you how to let go of about yourself for others or life but old ways of reacting you let go of to emerge more into who you are how did that difficult place that the wounded place become a sight for light shining through from large in your sense of who you are and with that informing you what right now is a place for awakening where is there some stuckness or woundedness that can be really the place that light can shine through there can be some awakening and you might sense this first level of surrendering by not making the difficulty wrong but rather just opening to how it might serve more freedom more love more wisdom so as we continue now the message of a place of suffering is pay more attention deepen your attention so I'd like to now talk about the three ways of presence and letting go that allow the light to shine through and very briefly I'll say it briefly and then both this class and next one will be going into it further the first big letting go is getting the knack of letting go of your thoughts that keep you in a virtual small reality about things learning how to let go not to believe your thoughts the second one is letting go the resistance to feelings so you can open to the aliveness that's here and the third is letting go into a larger field of intelligence and love so back to the thoughts letting go of thoughts it's what we're practicing in meditation all the time notice when you've been lost in a cloud of virtual reality and you don't have to try to vanquish the cloud just notice it so that you can be the sky and the clouds could be there but you're not stuck inside them you're not living in a contracted world you're not believing the message of the thoughts don't believe your thoughts and don't believe your thoughts and don't believe your thoughts that's the trick so we that's the first place of letting go and there's a story that I heard some years back about a guy who was a lifetime smoker and he was hospitalized with emphysema and after a series of small strokes his daughter encouraged him as she had often done to give up smoking and he basically asked her to buy him more cigarettes and he said look I've been a smoker all my life that's who I am that's the way it's going to be but several days later he had another small stroke and apparently in one of the memory centers in his brain he woke up the next day and without concerned he stopped smoking for good and it's just because he was not and this he wasn't able to in this case remember and cycle those thoughts of on the smoker I need to smoke I have to smoke I can't quit those beliefs just weren't he just didn't have access to them well meditation actually trains you to disentangle and to step out and to witness but not by the thoughts takes many rounds but that is the liberation of the practice you're not who you think you are really so don't believe your thoughts and this is a quote by Veronica toogle Ava she says we speak about losing our minds as if it's a bad thing I say lose your mind do it purposefully find out who you really are beyond your thoughts and your beliefs right don't believe your thoughts that's the first that's the big letting go then the second that I mentioned let go into open up to the vulnerability that's here we are absolutely designed to avoid feeling that edginess that fear that anything we can do to stay away from vulnerability we will so a part of the training of surrender is to on purpose say yes to what's here and we do it over time and I often think of that vulnerability like these shy creatures that hide in the woods and you know you can't force them out but you can say hey I'm here I'm willing I'm not going to gieux I just want to be with you to that vulnerability and it's like this light of the Sun in the meadow gradually they'll creep out if you're not judging and you're not going to turn on yourself so we begin to learn to say yes to the loneliness and yes to the sorrow and yes to the shame and yes to whatever's there and be with that's the second level of surrendering the third I think of as remembering love it's like to surrender our separateness to surrender into something bigger and there's different pathways of doing it this is what the whole loving-kindness practice is about that in some way we start to learn to give ourselves love and then something dissolves and we feel more part of that field of loving there are many different ways I'll tell you a couple of examples I learned a whole lot about surrender when I was writing my books and when it first started with radical acceptance I remember I'd be on a roll and then all of a sudden you know hit the typical writer block thing but it was painful it's like I lost all contact with any sense of a flow of creativity it all seemed like blather just like you know it was just like repetitive stuff a lot of I was glazed over by what I was writing and so I was getting exhausted and cycling and spinning and I started practicing more consciously okay pause this is not failure this is feedback it's you know it's not a bad thing it's just um in a difficult thing deepen attention so I started with that and then I did the let go of thinking thing like no I just stopped trying to think my way into what theme and what illustration and what teaching point I just said okay just drop it drop it and then I could start opening to what was underneath and there was an anxiety about like it meant a whole lot to me to be able to get the book out and a feeling of you know I can't do this there was like a belief of I can't do this which really made sense because I was so caught in the small sense of self that of course that small self couldn't do it that wasn't the source of the writing but when I was inside it it couldn't there was a feeling like I can't do this so that was that brought up that a sense of vulnerability and that's when I could start calling on a larger sense of intelligence and love it was almost like saying this little self can't do it so you're gonna have to do it this is a bigger field of loving presence the name that at that at that time crotch on aparajita is the is a description of the really the mother of the universe which is really the delayed and wisdom and heart wisdom that lives through all of us so I was calling on that heart wisdom and in the sense there was the surrendering the best way to describe it is this book doesn't belong to me it belongs to you is kind of like take it you know flow through me because I can't do this but it was in those moments of surrender I can't do this let something larger that I became larger does that make sense that I was no longer sitting inside us small egoic self there was just something larger and I would rest the meditate like that for a bid then I go back to my computer and it just things moved it in in the wisdom of it is that I realized there really wasn't a self writing a book there's not a self doing anything it's the universe flowing through more or less at different times that was a powerful part of of surrendering for me and then it has again and writing true refuge and more recently in radical compassion which is coming out next year I'd hit a stuck place and I realized oh there's a small self trying hard and need to surrender now a different kind of approach has been whenever I get caught in the trance of unworthiness and you know feeling unlovable like that many many many rounds of getting stuck and feeling not okay about myself and again it requires okay let go of the thoughts open to the feelings step one step two and in some way call on love to reconnect surrender to something larger and for me one of the pathways was in some way in that place that felt really unlovable to have a prayer please love me and it was like a prayer to that the love of the universe just to love me and in the sincerity of that prayer there would be a washing through a feeling of love happening I read you this is one of my favorite poems by Clarissa Estes she says refused to fall down and if you cannot refuse to fall down refuse to stay down and if you cannot refuse to stay down lift your heart toward heaven and like a hungry beggar ask that it be filled you may be pushed down you may be kept from rising but no one can keep you from lifting your heart towards heaven only you no one can keep you from lifting your heart towards heaven only you we can't control things we get pushed down we get stuck but there is the surrendering of in some way offering ourselves into our calling on the larger field of loving and even if we're not familiar with it there's something in us that senses that we belong to something larger so we can begin to call on it so most spiritual traditions in some way teach this kind of surrendering of letting go of our smallness into something larger living the the river empty into the sea every religious tradition that I've run into from Pompton jolly the Yoga Sutras it's a kind of a surrender into the Lord into oneness from Buddhism it's and this is take you take refuge you take refuge uh surrender into the truth of the present moment that's Dharma you surrender into Sangha or the relational field and you surrender into awareness the truth or oneness are pure wakefulness of your being Christians not my well God's will or 12-step programs turning your well over to a higher power it's all over so here are the questions that often come up when exploring surrender or with different students that I want to name because they're really important to acknowledge one is people will say well I've tried but I can't because I'm just so hooked on my beliefs that something's wrong with me that I can't get out of those beliefs and feelings enough to they just keep locking me in a small self I can't sense anything larger and that others actually help to confirm that reality that there's that you know I'm small and I'm not okay it is hard to sense something when were really stuck somebody sent me this is like a year ago with a dog on a psychiatrist's couch and he's saying it's right on my fence beware of dog how is that supposed to make me feel so we have these messages coming at us that you know you're bad you're this you're that and how are we supposed to you know surrender into a bigger field and yet and here's the deal even when we feel stuck there is an intuitive sense in us and this is what we sense from that palliative care caregiver who said I didn't live true to myself that there is more freedom there is a larger sense of our being and we're not in touch with it feels out of reach but there's some sense that it's there and that we're holding on tight to something smaller but there is that inner wisdom and I read something from ajahn Chah teaching that I thought was really useful about this he said that you see yourself clinging and you know it okay we all can see it in our lifes I'm clinging to myself as a depressed self or as a bad self or an unworthy self and we know it but we still can't let go but this is 50 to 70 percent of the practice already there isn't a release but we know that if we could let go that would be the way to peace even sensing that it's possible that if we could let go there be more peace means that we have an intuition of what's that through that wound the light can shine through so to honor just the process of knowing that you need to let go and you want to let go and the second big question that comes up a lot is that okay I'm trying to surrender but it just feels like a small self doing more controlling okay my small self is going to surrender now and I just want to suggest that when that happens pray in your own way but from a very sincere place in you please may there be a letting go please and the more sincere you get the more they'll be a dissolving of the crustiness and a surrender prayer really helps finally if it becomes like a move like you're meditating and something comes up and you say okay surrender and then you have some idea of something but you feel like you're just really like you know kind of again doing the controls surrender the surrendering you say so there's they okay I'm going to let go and then let go of the letting go and there's like a it's called the backward step just keep letting go of what comes up and let go of that and let go of the idea of letting go and let go that you should be doing it differently and gradually what you'll find is that they're space that you can relax into space okay to summarize letting go of the idea that something's wrong when you get stuck that's the attitude and then letting go of the thoughts just don't believe them letting go of the resistance to the feelings and then letting go into some larger sense of love and of presence and we'll explore them more but I want to get a taste right now so let's take a few moments to meditate together so this is a simple practice of surrender letting go of cultivating a surrendering presence and we begin by just scanning and you might scan your life and since some place that you get stuck and reactive well you know you get caught in your small self that if you were the end of your life looking back you would feel regretful that you stayed stuck in that smallness a place you get judgmental or defended or aggressive addictive greedy let yourself sense a very real-life situation where this has happened and not just holding the gestalt of it that this is this is a stuck place begin by seeing if you can let go of any judgment of badness like this is wrong or bad and and since is it that this is this is the wounded place that that room is talking about keep your gaze on the wounded place there's something going on here that's asking for attention and there's a potential wherever we're stuck for the light of freedom to shine through this is where the work can happen you might feel that that Bodhisattva prayer may this serve awakening may this help awaken my heart and my wisdom and let yourself deepen your attention to the situation so you can begin to sense what's going on inside you maybe you can notice what you're believing whenever we're suffering we're having sound belief that's limiting and untrue a belief I'm bad another person is bad I'm feeling they're failing if they're treating this way they couldn't love me if this doesn't change something very bad is going to happen just notice whatever thoughts or beliefs are circling and then see if you can sense when you're believing these thoughts what's going on in your body when you're really believing what the f– your thoughts are saying if you drop the thought just feel what's going on in your body maybe there's something you've been unwilling to feel can you gently open into your body and say I'm here what wants to be felt what wants attention and you can sometimes you can get more in touch with what's there if you let your face take the expression of the feeling tightening your face or scrunching clenching your jaws or letting your brows that helps to get in touch with what's in the body it can help if you put your hand on your heart because that can it's kind of a signal that you're keeping company I'm here it's like inviting those shy creatures out of the woods like I'm here let whatever wants to be felt be felt you might even let it be as big as it wants to be like let it fill your body let it fill the room let it fill the sky if it's fear hurt or sorrow so we let go of thoughts and we let go of resistance to the feeling and then the final letting go is letting all that you're feeling be held by something larger you might sense the vast field of this living web of life and the intelligence that lives in it and the love that's here and potential in each of us and around us or maybe there's a spiritual figure that helps remind you of love maybe there's a person you know but sense that you can surrender or let go of the woundedness into something larger let it be held imagine loving bathing this place be held by a larger presence and be patient it can take many rounds sometimes to learn to surrender this the pain of the small self into something larger just have the prayer and the intention please Mary let go let go into love please Mary let go into love rumi puts it this way he says be ground be crumbled so wildflowers will come up where you are you've been stony for too many years try something different surrender you've been stony for too many years try something different surrender it says we close you might sense yourself that this is a life practice of learning to surrender the thoughts and surrender into the feelings and surrendering to that larger loving space and that you can feel from your own intuitive wisdom that we remembering your belonging to something larger is a pathway to peace and to freedom and just knowing that will keep calling you home over and over taking a few nice full deep breaths and as you're ready opening your eyes namaste and thank you for your presence you


  1. It's wonderful to hear you mentioning Rachel Remen! She's truly a great author! Many thanks for this, your talks, books and podcasts are all wonderful

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